Befriend-The-Dolphin

I'm so worried, Calum went away to Bloodstock, he told me he'd be in school and he hasn't, I've tried everywhere and I can't find him. I'm really worried now.

Some songs make me feelso miserable, but on the other hand there are others which can make you feel godlike.
Due to a recent sort of deabatish thing with Mark I've gained a curiosity about the future, we live in uncertain times, recession, housing crisis, debt, lack of jobs, to be frank the country is a complete mess, so when I grown up, what happens.

1. I finish High school. - go to 2.
I leave at winter. - go to 3.

2. I go on to University.- go to 4.
I get a job. - go to 3.

3. End up in a low paying job.

4. Go to University and get qualified, end up in high paying job. - go to 5.
Go to University and give up. - go to 6.

5. Get bored of high paying boring ass job.

6. End up in a job that you enjoy and don't really care about how much you earn.

I guess I'm aiming for 6. So I've got my plan.

1. Finish high school.
2. Go to University.
3. Do English, Psychology and Maths.
4. Interesting job.
5. Afford a small flat.
6. Slowly go from there.

But thats only my education plan, god knows what I'll do about everything else.

Buenos Dias, Senors et Senoras.

Hello, ladies and gentlemen, the english language is no doubt a beautiful thing, it's mass of words, some stolen from other languages, otheres inspired and some formed along with the country itself.
I therefore celebrate the wonderous language, with a list.
Of words I like to say.

Congratulations.
Authority.
Suspect.
Cheese.
Result.
Inevitable. ( Despise the meaning.)
Numeracy.
Glitter.
Mathematical.
Solid.
Glass.
Acetate.
Violence.
Speciality.
Bovine.
Familiar.
Peroxide.
Sort-Code.
Account.
Plastic.
Rubber.
Rose.
Destroy.
Spherical.
Silk.
Secrecy.
Romance.
Pressurised.
Hidden.
Edge.
Fantastic.
Delightful.
Pirate.
Shock.
Arrest.
Biopsy.
Ice.
Glance.
Thrill.
Hate.
Seduce.
Human.
Linear.
Tactical.

Beh, I'l finish this later.

Tonight I'm staying at Iain's. George got in a fight and hurt his eyes, Calum and Jack are at Bloodstock.
I went to Edinburgh with my Dad today, the festival is on so it was pretty interesting.
Tomorrow I'm dying my hair again and also opening a new bank account for my bursery from school, I shall have forty pounds a week and whereas it's not a lot of money to somebody who's working, it's a lot to me.\
I'm thinking of buying terapins.
Who knows.

I need to pee, I can't. The toilet is downstairs and it's dark and I'm scared of the grudge.

I'm eating coleslaw right now, I love it. I'll play a guessing game, there's carrot, mayonaise and cabbage.

Ah well, on the side it says onion, whatever.

Today was good, I went out to ESC for a while, Chris went out a while. I was invited to have dinner with Calum, his Mum, his Dad, and his sister, it was really good. I like that about pub food, you always get this massive amount of food, the good thing is it always tastes fantastic. Anyway it was very nice.

I've been sending my Dad more and more e-mails. It's good, we're getting on well.

I'm going to bed, I'm going swimming on the morning.

Night.

I'm playing this game, you have to connect different hexagons together to make a specific pattern, it's agitating to say the least.

Well anyway, I've recently come across a problem, two of my friends are weirdly worried about me all the time. I've drawn some conclusions.

1. They think I'm going to kill myself.
2. They think I'm going to hurt myself.
3. They're extremely nosey.
4. They thrive on drama.

All of which I don't like, they mean a lot to me, well, one does anyway. Hm, I suppose I understand his concern but with the other one I don't.

Ah well, Calum's eating cornflakes, I hate cornflakes. They smell disgusting and taste a million times worse.

I'm going back to my hexagonal nightmare.

Bye bye.

Tonight it's Iain's birthday party, he turned sixteen. Me and Calum figured it was a good idea to get him a kinky birthday gift. I bought him fur lined handcuffs and Calum got him boxers, the first pair said "Too hot to handle. " And the other pair is one that we anticipate he can use in the future, they said, "No. 1 Dad."
We knew he'd appreciate them and he did, very much so.
Calum has been in quite a cheery happy cuddly mood which has been really nice.
Right now he's going through Iain's phone.

Tomorrow we're all going to Calum's dad's house, he's buying whiskey and heather ale, which should be interesting.
I know that at least one person will get completely drunk.
Kate can't stay and although Iain's cheery you can see he's making the most of her being here before she has to go.
Mark, Calum, Calum, Kate and Iain and Alice are here.

I'm in a kind of strange mood right now, I don't feel any particular mood.

Right now I'm considering where I'm going to move when I'm older, my own choices are Russia, Sweden, Denmark, Canada, eh some country where I can't speak the language preferably. I'm less likely to hate the people.

Tomorrow I plan to try and have a pleasant day, I'm still looking for a fully good day, the second you start to realise all of the bad things in the universe then something changes you gain negativity in exchange for innocence, you don't really get it back. The human condition, it's the only reason that a four year old child will take you for what you say and a fourteen year old will question you and judge you.

I really feel like watching V for Vendetta or breaking something.

My boyfriend is touching Kate with his feet I'm going now.

Night night.

Today I started my list and my book.
My list will be all of the things I want to do before I die.
The book will be in the list.

I'm not talkative at the moment.

Night.

Act 1. Scene 1. Laboratory Internal. Midday

Professor Leed: Look, there's no way of stopping it now, the chemicals are out there. People have already been exposed to the toxins there's nothing we can do. Okay?
Professor Green: I know. I just, is there nothing we can do, maybe at least slow the spread of the toxins so we can work out a cure.

Professor Leed: There's no cure. I examined the molecular structure, it's solid, it's too deadly, our attempts, any medication would be eliminated under the sheer strength of the chemicals.

Professor Green: So there's nothing we can do? Sit tight? Look!

Professor Green grabs Professor Leed.

Professor Green: This is all on me, this all happened on my watch, and out there, those people, dying in the streets. I killed them, as far as the government are concerned, manslaughter. I'll get life, my life will be ruined, my wife, she's not going to hang around.

Professor Leed: That's all you care about, isn't it?

Professor Green: At the moment, yes.

Professor Leed: Then it's a good thing your soda is laced with the very chemicals you invented.

Professor Green looks at Professor Leed and then at the can of soda on the steel table behind them. He glances back again before loosing his grip of Professor Leed's labcoat and falling to the cold ground.

Today I woke up and not a lot happened. Tomorrow I'm going to the beach.
Calum is away playing games, I wish he'd come home, I just want to see him a while before I have to go.

Bye bye.

I'm going to have to rush this one. I have to meet Kiwi soon, Kiwi's my best friend.
Yesterday me and Calum went to the seaside. I liked being able to spend time with him and it was fun.
On the train journey he slept most of the time, but he felt uncomfortable when I told him that he slept with his mouth open in a carriage ful of people.
I'm really surprised, I'm not even sunburned. Well, I tried to dye my hair, it messed up and I prefer it now but I'm dying it again soon.
Going to the movies today, Calum is nice enough to pay Kiwi in, I'll bitch slap her until she pays him back though.
My uterus hates me.
I wish I had more ice cream, we have this great stuff in the freezer but I'm at Calum's.

I don't know what to type now so I'll type goodbye.